When you're young everyone asks "What do you want to be when you grow up?" Some of us want to be doctors, lawyers, astronauts, etc. and in my case, I dreamed of becoming a STAR. The next Shirley Temple. Movies, tv shows, sing-a-longs… hell why not name a drink after me?! Hmph. 

So I got a little older and started to figure out "Who I was" and plans became a little more realistic, but I still had big dreams.

The idea was to get through school, graduate, party it up in college, and then get said degree. Find a job. Make millions. Find a husband and have babies. Achieve Brittany's big dreams!

Well, we all know life happens. We develope friendships. then relationships. party. take tests/fail tests/ace tests. grow boobs (if we're lucky). get in fights with our parents. think we know everything about the world. The ups and downs, ins and outs, but it will all be alright because when we are adults we will have time to be perfect and do everything right. When you are young you are the 'dreamer' and when you are 'old' you become the 'do-er'. 

Well sometimes life really throws you for a loop. And in my case, it was a pretty big freekin' loop. I had to be a 'do-er' a little earlier than planned.

I was 17 years young when I found out I had a bun in my little oven- of course me growing boobs couldn't just be a lucky growth spurt- and all of my plans had to be alterted a little. Scared shitless, I had to come to terms with one helluva 'oopsie.' My parents and family were very supportive and I had a blast shopping for baby clothes with my mom instead of deodorant and tampons! But the thing that I am most grateful for is that I had a 'baby daddy' who stood by my side through the entire process. And after 8 years of craziness, I call that 'baby daddy' my husband, Adam. He can be a pain in the ass sometimes but I could'nt have done it without him!                  I digress.

So at 17, my plans for the future were put on the back burner.  Instead of checking out colleges I was checking out apartments. Shopping for shoes turned into shopping for diapers. And having a giant preggo belly while trying to fight through the high school cafeteria was hell. God forbid some little twerp got in the way of me and my taco salad. I was ready to  snap necks left and right. But at least I had a few months to prepare and have everything ready right?? Wrong.

My little bun didn't want to stay in the oven. After a long and stressful night (thanks OPD) that I will most likely share later,  I gave birth via C-section to my 4.6 pound son Maximus. Seven weeks premature. He really was and is my little gladiator. The story of his birth and the months to follow is a story for another time, but I reassure you he is healthier and happier than I could have ever asked for. And it was nothing like that bullshit you see on Teen Mom << don't even get me started.

Skipping over a little and getting to the moral of my story…  shit happens. Sometimes its a huge life altering event such as mine, and sometimes its just a minor set back. But we all have dreams. We have all at one point made big plans for ourselves. Even though your plans change a little, do not forget what your dream is. 

My big dream is no longer to because a STAR- I wouldn't object to it- but I'm thinking more along the lines of what is best for my family as a whole. But I still have dreams and big plans for how I envision my life. In a way, I'm lucky because I don't have to stress over creating my perfect family because I already have it so now it is time for me to get OFF MY ASS and start DOING SOMETHING about these dreams. No more procrastinating. Baby steps. Vision boards?? Whatever can get me a little closer to becoming the woman, mother, and wife that I dream to be.

I knew I hoarded all of those magazines for a reason.

Keep dreaming. Never let anyone bring you down. You are in control of your life and you can make it happen.

Lets get this show on the road!
If you need a little help getting started:

• The Secret … I was very inspired by this movie that I found on Netflix and know many who loved the book!
• Self help books… they're really quite inspiring.
• Vision boards… if you're a visual person these are great! (Oprah even supports this idea)
• Journals, Timelines, and Bucketlists… it really helps to get your thoughts onto paper and put it all together.
• They even have Apps!

No two human beings are exactly the same. We may find similarities in physical appearance and personality but no one on the entire planet is exactly like you. Isn't that fascinating?! You should feel special that you are literally one of a kind. You can thank your parents for how you look- some genetics are better than others....thanks for the chicken legs dad- but the way we think, feel, and behave is (for the most part) a result of our personal life experiences.
       Therefore, in order to better understand my rantings and ravings it may be helpful for you to get to know me a little better. And if you enjoy spending a few precious moments of your life every week to read my blog you will get a better sense of my genius- or madness- however you may look at it.

                            So here we go...
                                                           The good, the bad, and the ugly.

I'm a hoarder, procrastinator, and a wee bit messy. I'm not very organized but there's usually a method to my madness. I'm very stubborn and always right. And woooweee baby do I love to debate... but I also love to learn new things and am reasonable so you may have a chance. Patience is not my strongest quality and sometimes I'm a little selfish but can you honestly say you never are?

((Wow I sound like a horrid bitch but I promise I'm really not that bad. I just wanted to get the nasty stuff out of the way.))

I used to be pretty shy but that is getting better as I get older. It comes down to low confidence levels but I have been working on it and am going to continue doing so! I'm kind of a nerd and can get vveirrrrd. Sometimes I swear I'm an old lady trapped in a 24 year old body. I like to talk about inappropriate things but not in inappropriate situations so I guess I should be grateful for that! 

I love people and surrounding myself with all sorts of different personalities. I also hate people (don't get me started on black friday) and love to be alone to do my own thing. I am not very good at communicating when it's not face-to-face. Talking on the irks me- except with a select few- along with driving and overly large masses of bodies.  

I'm a girly-girl but not afraid to get dirty. I love camping (the real kind. in a tent. no makeup or curling irons) and I love nature. But I also love big cities and having the convenience of numerous tech devices. I can be a little of a juxtaposition. And I love it. I never want to be a boring, predictable, cookie-cutter gal.

For the most part I am a kind, loving and caring person. Sometimes I care a little too much for my own good. The hopeless romantic and emotional side of me tends to override the little sensibility I possess but that's much better than being a heartless witch! I'm a very creative and passionate woman..when something really sings to my soul you best believe I'm going to share it with as many people as possible. And that is one of the main reasons I started this blog thingy.

So you may be wondering what the point of this really is…. is it a fashion blog, makeup blog, fitness blog (psshhhh yeah right), foodie blog… WTF am I going to be talking about every week?!?! 


It is all of the above (very light on the fitness part). A lifestyle blog really. And a little bit of an experiment. 
It will be a journey of figuring out who I am, who I want to be, and how I plan on getting there. You're going to see projects I'm creating, new recipes I'm making my husband and son ingest, make up and fashion loves/hates, and most likely hear about some books and movies that I feel the whole wide world should experience. 

It's going to be a blast people. 
possibly a little messy and i'm not promising i won't be kinda odd at times. 
But gosh darnnit it sure as hell is not going to be boring!

Be sexy, but classy. Be fun, but grounded. Be different, but relatable. Just be you. Be the woman you want to be.  

So Marilyn Monroe may not have been the perfect housewife or a brain surgeon, but she was beautiful and proud. She owned her sexuality. She spoke her mind. It wasn't about prancing around in the buff or twerking your booty… it was showing a little collarbone or a slip of the thigh and being proud of what you have. OWN. IT. WOMAN! 
Maybe you're not a size zero or a big busted broad but you have amazing calves and know how to rock a set of red lips- all that matters is that you be you! I have seen stick thin pretty girls that are constantly searching for approval from others and I have seen curvy beautful women who own their bodies (and minds!) with the confidence and poise of a lioness…. who is more beautiful??? CONFIDENCE ladies!  It doesn't matter if you are big or small, if you are confident and feel beautiful, others will see that beauty shine. (There isn't anything wrong with a little makeup or a pair of great spanx to enhance what your mama gave you though!)
  Now, I am not the most confident woman and have so many insecurities, but that is what this is about. Recognizing that though I may not look like a Victoria's Secret model, I am beautiful and I should feel beautiful.  If I could have anything in the world (besides an unlimited Betsey Johnson shopping spree) it would confidence and a perfect credit score.

Don't just be proud of what you look like on the outside- be proud of what makes you different from everyone else! We are not robot bitches. I would die from extreme boredom if I had the same conversation with every Jack and Jill I ran into.  We all look, smell, speak, and act differently. I grew up with different people, in different places, listening to different music, and eating diffrent foods than you. Every experience of my life has lead to the person I am today. 
                                                                                         NO ONE CAN BE ME.
 We should all appreciate the indidvduals we are. My best friend is organized and knows her limits… I, on the other hand, am a hoarder and extreme procrastinator. Any of those things (except for maybe procrastination) can be good or bad in certian amounts, but we balance eachother. Another one of my friends is a conservative republican who is sooo opposite from me you would think that we would rip eachothers hair out. On the contrary, we have some of the best conversations I have ever had with any of my friends! If I wanted to hang out with the exact same person as I am I would sit at home. by myself. all damn day. BORING. 

As much as I want to try new looks and find what really makes me feel GORGEOUS, I also want to learn new things and expand my brain. Confidence comes from the inside and the out. Test yourself, experiment, and perfect what makes YOU happy.

So here it goes… here is to finding MY confidence, trying new things, setting goals (and not forgetting them), and not letting fear or laziness stop me from being the woman that I want to be. You only live once people.